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the other side of this life. January 7, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — in2deep @ 4:06 pm

..and would you wanna see
if seeing meant that you would have to believe…?

the past few months,
i’ve been shown things.
i’ve been told things.

i see the angels.
i talk to them.
i help them help people.
i am shown the world that exists parallel to ours.

i am supposed to be special.
i am not supposed to be one of you.

that explains the unusual events that took place in my life.

my loss,
my pain,
my accident,
my heartache,
my loving,
my being loved,
my having love,
my losing love,
my fighting,
my struggle,
my losing hope,
my gaining strength,
my believing in God,
my restoration of faith,
my rising above…

it was all that i had to go through,
to be the person that i am today.

i am told i am man of God.

my gifts.
my abilities.
they are not my reward.
they are my responsibility.

i lived in denial for a long time.
i didn’t admit the things i could do.
i denied that i was in denial.
and like Meredith said in one of the episodes of Grey’s Anatomy:

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. And when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim. The world of pretend is a cage, not a cocoon. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. We are tired, we are scared, denying it doesn’t change the truth. Sooner or later we have to put aside our denial and face the world. Head on, guns blazing. De Nile. It’s not just a river in Egypt, it’s a freakin’ ocean. So how do you keep from drowning in it?

i fought with my reality for the most part of my life.
but now,
i have embraced it.

i am special.
i am God’s son.
He calls me His beta.

He tells me He loves me.
He tells me He loves us all.
He tells me to look for the good in everyone.
He tells me to show everyone the good in themselves.

we struggle so much for reason.
for purpose.
for meaning.
and then,
in the end,
it is only to be found in one another.
in each other.


keep dreaming.
because the dream always come true.
it always shows its face.
the dream does become real.


pray to God.
ask Him for anything.
ask Him for everything.
thank Him.


know that there is always another way.
the future is not written in stone.

i don’t know how many will ever believe my story.
or the fact that i really do exist.

but some individuals,
it is true,
are more special.
they could be david blaine.
they could be bill gates.
they could be princess diana.
it is natural selection.
it begins as a single individual born like every other human.
seemingly ordinary.
except they’re not.

it’s destiny.


6 Responses to “the other side of this life.”

  1. in2deep Says:


    Im so happy you wrote. And it all came out just perfect. Just perfect.

  2. UTP Says:

    WOW!! That was worth writing my friend…beautifully…brought out….I am happy you wrote too…

  3. falsa Says:

    You are God’s creation, but not His son. “He begeteth not and nor was He begotten and there’s none like unto him.” Stay good and safe and tuck that faith in your heart because Allah(swt) lives in broken hearts.

  4. Ghazala Khan Says:

    Hello ,
    I hope you are fine and carrying on the great work you have been doing for the Pakistani side of Internet. I am Ghazala Khan from The Pakistani Spectator (TPS), We at TPS throw a candid look on everything happening in and for Pakistan. We are trying to contribute our humble share in the blogistan.

    We at TPS are carrying out a new series of interviews with the notable Pakistani bloggers. In that regard, we would like to interview you, if you dont mind. Please send me your approval for your interview, so that I could send you the questions. We would be extremely grateful. We have done many interviews with many bloggers from Pakistan like Dr. Awab, Kashif Aziz, Fahd
    Mirza, Unaiza Nasim, Omer Alvi and host of others.


    Ghazala Khan
    The Pakistani Spectator

  5. zaina Says:

    hi..its suga..

    hope ur well..
    Beautifully written

  6. Faiqa Says:

    OHMYGod! you are alive and still writing….!! which makes me happy…how r you doing?

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